I had someone tell me, something with absolute certainty.
They told me I was in Alto.
Now, this person has musical experience. They have likely a education in some aspect of music. However, I allowed their statement of what I was, to affect me.
This person is a Christian, this person is in leadership, this person is supposed to be someone who is encouraging, and uplifting..
Now, I don't think it was intentional. I think it was more of a human faulty Factor. But, I have spent a year and a half of my life, second guessing the gifts that I have been given. Given. Second guessing myself. Second guessing, what God's plan for me is.
Amidst all of the things going on right now. No matter what political /religious/ sociological view you have. I implore you, to remember that your words, have effect.
To One who feels hurt, or scared, or unsure.. or even to the person who's excited.. about the current political environment.
Please.. PLEASE. Remember, that your words have power. Remember, your actions, have meaning. Remember that you have children watching, and learning, and absorbing everything that you are doing, and feeling, and saying.
Even the small things.
The things we think we know.
The things we think, are not a big deal.
Can have, profound.. and lasting, effects.
Even when we do not mean them to, even when we mean well. Well. Even when we feel like it is our job to make sure of the goal, or the quality, or whatever it may be.
If we want to actually make a difference in this world. The first, and most important step.. is how we treat each other.
We cannot make assumptions. We cannot be divided. We cannot put people into a box based on the most prevalent/ visual representation. No matter the situation.
I grew up in an incredibly, overprotective and conservative environment. There have been documentaries done, on the cult-like existence that I grew up in.
I grew up in extreme, Conservative Christian, environments. They have literally made documentaries on the cult like situations that I grew up in. I was partially spared, due to the fact that my father was not a Christian. Factors was that the head of the family was the most important. The fact that my father, was not a Christian, meant that the head of our family, could not be the overarching "umbrella".. therefore, we were not " accepted" within the IBLP structure of teaching.
I have every right to turn away from what I was grown in. I have every right to.. sum up what I grew up with as farce, and Insanity, and near fascist in belief.
But God. . .
My God. Is, so much more, than any human can describe. So many have tried, and so many have succeeded, and yet failed. A shadow of a doubt that there is no way, for one person, to be able to describe my God. Because my God, does not fit within a box that is comprehensible by the human mind / psyche/ experience.
If not believe this, that's fine. I don't require you to. I will not run from this, I will not back down from this, I will NOT be afraid, to defend this.
I understand that I have a unique experience. I understand that not everyone has the same, but there is a difference, between being accepting, and being accepting of what we're okay with.
Christ. Who was God Incarnate. Accepted, an adulterous woman, a tax collector(most abhorrent in that time, essentially a politician (although, it would take a literal act of God to show he *some* politicians would count)), a fisherman.
A thief.. who shared a cross beside him.
I have personally.. experienced, too many things, to write them off as "coincidence" or "luck". I have had too many close calls, or instances of "clairvoyance", or even prophecy, to be able to write off my belief in God.
I have seen too many things. Too many what-ifs, come to fruition. Too many " unexplained" feelings, or knowings, write off, God.
One of the hardest moments, of my life. Was the first time, I let my firstborn son, fall off at the couch.
I could have caught him. I could have saved him. I could have lessened his fall......
But in that moment that I saw him edging towards the edge of the couch, I knew I had to decide. Would I let him make the choice, and learn the lesson himself, or would I try and protect him beyond when I should.
That. Is the the ultimate, lesson.
If, a God who knows all, who sees all, who could prevent all.... Does nothing, does that make him an unloving God?
Or?
Does that make him a loving God , who wants us to be able to learn, and grow, and *thrive*, on our own. Who * wants* Us to have our own free will. To make our own choices. Because having someone else make our own choice for us is.. NOT. Free. Will.
And I *believe*, that my God. Wants to have a personal, genuine, heartfelt, relationship, with me. And also with you. No matter what may may separate us, as far as our beliefs, or our political standpoints, or our personality differences.
I also believe, wholeheartedly, that my God.. is able to have that kind of relationship with people who don't agree, on politics, or beliefs, or political standpoints.
I also believe, beyond a shadow of a doubt. That my God. Is greater, than any one-man, who may have been elected, or may tote his name.
And my God, has said, from his own mouth, as Christ incarnate.
To any who would lead my children astray it would be better for them to drown in the sea with a stone around their neck.
So I will praise my GOD who I know has a plan. And no matter what, evil, or darkness may seem to prevail, I *know* that my God is bigger.
